From up to down

It's strange how tiny things can change a mood from positive and happy to negative, depressed and suicidal. Some tiny trigger that collapses the mood.
If I had a blade now and they weren't all in or near the room T is in I'd be cutting.
My trigger... realising the tooth that needs work has gotten worse meaning ill need the work done sooner rather than later, probably before the hypnotherapy session. I'm not ready and I dont feel like u can cope with it and I don't want to do it. Suddenly date night and this weekend seems like I was looking forward to something ill never be able to enjoy or do justice too. T deserves so much better than an unappreciative wife who's always moody and depressed.
I keep thinking there must be an alternative to going to the dentist and I guess there might be but the few I can think if wouldn't be the best ideas.