Trapped inside

As predicted the goal for today completely failed. I'm now stuck at home while T and Angel are out having fun.

It's been nearly a month since I went out properly on foot past the postbox and it's been nearly 2 weeks since I went to the postbox and longer since going in the car.
The longer I go without going out the harder it is to do it.

The things against me today were the low level nausea feeling I still have which Im thinking must be hormones. I also wasn't ready to go out. We had an hour to get out and do things before T's family and T spent most of that time in the bathroom which left no time for me to get ready so when he stood at the door a minute ago asking if I'm ready to go the answer had to be no. How am I supposed to get ready when I can't even do my teeth.

I sooooo don't want to be near his family today as much as I like them I'm in that phase where I want to hide and having a house full of people isn't what I need. Again he didn't want to cancel so I have no choice and he wonders why I get moody and argumentative.

I don't know what to do now, I want to say that I will hide out if the way when they're here but I want to be near Angel I feel so yacky and horrible in my tummy from the stress and everything. Today will be hard.