Tomorrow I'm supposed to be going to the dentist to be sedated and have some root fillings done. I'm still unsure whether ill be able to go through with it. I want to just get it out of the way but at the same time I guess I'm pinning some of my hopes on the hypnotherapy on Monday helping me so if I go next week instead i'll cope better. However if it doesn't work so well i'll have put it off for long enough that I'll be a total wreck. One of the downsides to tomorrow is having to take Angel with us, one one hand she may help me cope better on the other hand not being able to have T's full attention on me and keeping me calm and holding me down will be miles harder.
At the moment I'm thinking i'll have to see how I feel tomorrow morning and cancel If I need to. At the moment just thinking about it is making my tummy unhappy which is pressing more buttons and triggering me.
One minute I feel fine about it,almost calm and the next I'm terrified and shaking. There is only 2 options, leave here and leave my husband and daughter behind or face it and deal with it.
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