A rough night

Last night T and I had a very bad argument which ended in him writing me a letter. We wee both very upset and hurt so I decided to take the evening away from him to have a shower and clear my head so I could write a  responsible, true reply back to him. I think the fact that I asked for time alone upset him too but I knew it was what I needed to clear my mind and once I'd got my tears out of the way I could think properly.

We sent a few replies backwards and forwards and mostly got things sorted. I offered him the chance to leave me or have me leave him and make it work but he declined and I never intend to ask that question again. I think we both need to accept that when we are both in low, augmentative moods that we are more guarded with what we say and maybe just do something together to be close that doesn't need talking which could turn into an argument, like watching a movie or doing some painting together.

Today is the day that I was supposed to be going to the dentist but for the last two days I haven't had any pain from my tooth at all. Me and T decided between us this morning that we are best leave the dentist for today as we don't really have the spare money to pay for an appointment. If I needed one we would make it work but no point if it isn't really needed.

So today we are going to go up to a retail park because I have a voucher off in one of the shops. However i can't see me really using it for much as there isn't anything we need and with money being tight, I'd rather no spend it. When I say money is tight, i mean that we are okay month to month but we live month to month, we have no savings anywhere to catch us if we have to fork out on something unexpectedly. I am putting together a list of things that we have around the house that we can sell to go into a saving account and I'm wracking my brains trying to come up with more ways that I can make us money. I would feel so much better if I could contribute and I know that we would be better financially. I want to do my bit, I just don't know how to.

I'm going to get ready to go out, I expect I will write about how much of a success or failure it is later. Until then, bye x