New week, new start.

Today I didn't have very high expectations for myself. I got up and gradually got Angel and me ready for the day. We were both on go slow.
It was gone eleven by the time I was ready to go out and even at that point I didn't feel properly ready, I was  very anxious, shaking, and wanting to go inside and hide. K rang me and told me I didn't have to force myself if I wasn't up for it but I pushed through, I went outside and locked the door behind us. Then I kept walking, up to the post box which seemed miles away with how nervous I was. After that although I was very panicky I walked to K's house and we picked up some leaflets to post to nearby houses. It started raining when we got there and I actually found it helped a lot, so by the time we had stood talking then left again I was feeling calmer. Angel and I had some lunch, admittedly I didn't have much and what I did have would be considered more dessert than actual food, but I got something into me with my very small appetite.

Angel didn't have a nap in the afternoon, she played and danced and played more and the day just kind of drifted by. Angel did insist on playing up quite a bit which kept getting me annoyed but I think with the weather being wet outside she was bored being stuck inside. That and she is still teething her very back teeth.

I made a new recipe for dinner, I made my own sweet, sticky mango sauce and cooked some chicken in it until it was all golden and yummy. I did a mismatch of pasta and naan bread too, because that was what we had in. Angel didn't eat much but T and I enjoyed it a lot. I enjoyed it too much, my plan had been for me to make dinner then go and do the leaflets before Angel went to bed, but I was just too hungry to wait.

Once Angel was in bed, I decided that although I'd eaten and non-safe food in my mind, I would still go out and at least post the leaflets in my road and very nearby. I put my music on and just lost myself in the feel of the floor under my footsteps, the sound of the voices and instruments in the music and the louder outside sounds which got in through the sound of my music.
I ended up posting all of the leaflets and I would have done a whole load more if I'd had them, I walked the long way home and shocked T by telling him that I'd done it all.

I'm really very tired now. Very worried about the dentist on Thursday but right now the most important thing I need to do it sleep.