Yesterday morning we needed to go grocery shopping for the week. Once we were ready we head over to fl outdoors first to do an exchange. we were going to go to the big sainsburys which is near there,but I said is rather go to Tesco because that's what I'd set myself up mentally to do.when we got there we manage to get a good parking space near the middle doors. I really wasn't sure if I was up to going in there, so I decided to take it 1 step at a time. I was nervous at first and throughout most of the shop. But I stayed In there and faught it and bridged.
The hardest part was when I gave my prescription in, it got so busy and I felt trapped right at the back of the shop in the crowds.
I don't know how I did it and on no meds but I stayed and faught hard.
Once we'd payed, T took the shopping to the car while Angel and I walked up to another shop to find some things. We then head home via fast food place to get lunch.
In the afternoon my daddy and my sister came over, it was P's birthday so we gave her her pressies and we chatted then K, A and Phia came over for dinner and I felt more relaxed than last time and ate a lot more. I think its going to be a practise thing.
Last night before sleep a lot of my memories and forgotten things about the ward cane back to me and left me in s low way. I ended up playing games till late to distract my mind.
This morning T, Angel and I are planning to go to town for a few hours. I've take a lorazapam and I think it'd taken effect.
I'm terrified of doing this but I've wanted to go to town for weeks now. Maybe even month. I'm just worried about T's knees too.
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