Today

Today I didn't go out past the street again. It was so hot and again I was having trouble with my blood pressure making me faint. KR came round at half 11 and we sat playing with Angel and chatting. Id felt so depressed before he arrived and I wad very grateful for him coming,because be cheered me up a lot.
It struck me while we were playing how much I actually trust him, how easy he is to be with. He is so good with Angel its adorable and Angel has given him a nickname 'Cardi' not sure why, but its cute and he seems to like it. He is so caring and gentle with her, and hes fun too. He completely took my mind off my depression which is very hard to do when I'm in that state. And apart from accidentally making me bang my head off the floor, I had a lovely day and I ate in front of him fine. Be hugged Angel and me goodbye,surpriseing me, by twirling me round.
My depression is back now. Poor T is suffering with his knees being very painful again so he's very caught up on that. It's date night tonight, the only 3 hours I get off a week,but I doubt we will do much.

No idea what our plans are for tomorrow. My dad and sister will most likely be coming round in the afternoon and we need to get some shopping. But everything depends on the weather and me.

I feel so down and empty that its upsetting my tummy which makes ne feel worse. It's a crappy cycle to be in.