Today has been a rough day. It started off really well, after a day in yesterday we went out early and looked around some shops, taking our time and gathering supplies for painting and decorating the house. I was on no lorazapam but managed to stay calm and go in the shops. We had planned that weather Angel had a sleep or not, I would do some stripping or painting in the afternoon. We ended up being out over 2 and a half hours and by the time we got home we had a great selection of things to get us started doing the decorating and we were all hungry and eagerly scoffed lunch.
I set to work on the stairway, stripping the woodchip, but T kept getting impatient with Angel and pushing for her to have a lie in her cot when I could clearly see she didn't need it. After battling on with ny guilt and listening to t's mood getting worse I stopped what I was doing and went to help. I ended up just sitting around all afternoon. Angel was irritable and moany, T was tired and grumpy and I was getting steadily more peed off with being in a house with two moody people. If it wasn't for my anxiety after eating I'd have gone out and left them to it. I was so angry and annoyed and we all ended up arguing and falling out. I got more and more stressed and tempted until I gave in and found a blade, I didn't care that I was in plan sight if one of them walked in. I knew it had been building.
After our evening meal we all seemed to perk up a bit and T decided to get on with some decorating prep so we could crack on when Angel went to bed.
She was asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow and T and I got on with the stripping and painting in the bathroom and cubby between the bathroom and kitchen. We've not long finished and Tidied up after ourselves but our walls are now blue and look a lot better.
I'm really hoping for a better day tomorrow whatever we end up doing
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