Edgy

Today has been another slow day. Taking it a little at a time seems like the best way to get through at the moment.
I started the day exhausted because I ended up being up late thanks to forgetting to take my meds and then some loud hopeless drunks arguing and a woman literally having tantrums and throwing herself in front of the police car and on the floor.

Angel was up a little later today, well later for her, being 7am rather than half 5 or 6 and T let me sleep until half 8 I think it was so I got a little extra. Angel has been in a very trying mood all day today though. She has been clingy and acting like she was acting before she got ill a few weeks ago, so I was edgy all day, watching her and waiting and silently praying to anyone that might be listening that she's not poorly again.

Our moods seemed to be bouncing off each other and when T suggested that could be the case now, I decided to try and change it around, which had the effect of Angel cheering up and me cheering up. I tried to keep her occupied with a variety of things but she has had the attention span of a flea and went from one thing to another moaning and whining as she went. In the end I decided to do some baking while she played with a bowl of water in the kitchen again while T cooked dinner and I made a mess with my mixing. She didn't stay happy and occupied very long before she was claiming starvation and literally trying to eat her T-shirt and the towel which was drying on the radiator :s I'm very confused by that but she thought it was a good idea.

Mine and T's sister-in-law rang this morning and asked if it would be okay if her, two of her children and T's mum could come visiting from where they live about 3 or more hours away. I was very reluctant with how I'm feeling but they put me on the spot and I couldn't have said no. So now I have a day of people tomorrow and my tummy is already feeling wibbly at the idea.

So at the end of another stressful day, I'm still feeling fragile and cut up again the person who hurt me and I'm still incredibly fragile about Angel and for some reason I have major fear that's flared up about my teeth. It's never ending and so tonight I'm looking forward to some writing time and shutting off from the real world.