Last night was a night if barely any sleep. When we first went to bed there were a few guys in a car drug dealing. Customers were coming and going then they left their car and wondered off so we tried to get sine sleep. Next half hour they were back and a moped was also involved.
Then at about 3 we were woken by banging and voices and we realised some guys were breaking into next door where the fire had been. The police came and police dogs and all the noise woke Angel up. She didn't go back to sleep and I ended up getting her up at half 5. We were talking the police and did statements and then T had to go on his training course and it was just me and Angel, both very tired. I knew unless there was an emergency or something then we wouldn't be going out so I ran the bath and I had a shower while angel bathed. After a little snack we went outside because Angels friend S was out there and they played an hour or so which I was really please about, she needed the time outside and with a friend was a bonus.
After lunch Angel went for a nap and I ended up working although I should have been sleeping too. She'd only been asleep an hour when she woke up screaming In pain and thankfully T was on his way home. It was her tummy hurting again :(
The dentist is drawing steadily closer and I'm getting more and more terrific. I'm better when I know I dont 'have' to go because if I postpone its no big deal. But this definitely needs filling and I don't even know if he will let me have it done on no pain relief. I can't deal with being Sedated right now not for such a small thing and I can't have the needles.
I keep thinking I just won't go. I'm so terrified of it. I'm looking forward to just doping up to cope but I'm relying on that. Which I know I shouldn't.
Need to get an early night tonight and get my head in the right space. I can foresee hypnotherapy, music, cuddles and knitting .....
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