Back Home Again

I'm writing this using my computer now that I'm back home again and it is a hell of a lot easier. 


Last night was a bit of a nightmare, Angel kept waking up crying because of the wind and in the end T ended up going and sleeping in her room with her. 


This morning I woke up to the sound of them talking away in the other bedroom and it made me feel happier. I took my meds that would ensure I would be calm and mostly knocked out then I finished packing everything and then I felt the meds beginning to work and I had a few biscuits. When everything was in the car and we were ready we set off, going along the coast to say a final goodbye to the beach and the sea. A lot of the journey was fuzzy until we stopped an hour in at a services to get food and a big panic attack set it. I had to walk through a huge room with various food outlets all around it and weave through the hundreds of tables and people sitting eating, all the different food smells and sounds. I managed to get to the bathroom and then made my way back out, trying to keep calm while my head was spinning and I felt out of it. 


We had to sit in the car and wait for a while before I felt ready to move again, and I took another anti-emetic suggested by T, to knock me out and stop the nausea feeling. I kinda knew at the time what it was, I was due my lady time and my tummy always feels wibbly before that. We pulled out onto the motor way again but Angel wasn't interested in her DVD much any more, or her food. The last few hours were spent with me desperately trying to stay awake to help out with Angel while T got more and more grumpy and tired because of her behavior and because of his knees hurting. Angel was just overtired from not sleeping much the night before. We all were. I regretted taking the second tablet because I didn't get to sleep it off, so I'm not feeling out of it in a bad way. 


We got home at about two in the afternoon to find the animals very happy and extremely well looked after, the house was clean, smelled lovely, tidy and there were all sorts of jobs that had been done for us, to make it easier for when we got back. Thank you K, You're wonderful.


I managed to get myself to eat a little then T's knees were hurting so half asleep, I set to work on unpacking the two 4ft bags, Angel's toy bag, the travel bag and the two 3ft bags. I managed to get it all done, but instead of sitting down I decided to get on with more things to keep myself awake. I washed all the bathroom, rearranged everything around the bath, washing-up the washing, putting the clean washing away (Thank you to my special friend for folding it for me). 


By the time I had finished everything it was nearly time for Angel to go to bed and after making bottles for tonight and tomorrow we took her up to bed. She's now sleeping back in her own cot. 


I've just sat down and wrapped all the presents I got for people on holiday, couldn't resist and they deserve to be wrapped and special. Now I'm wondering what to do with myself, Considering doing some work for the first time in just under a week. I ended up not working apart from one day on holiday. 


Last thing again,,,,,, THANK YOU K!