We travelled to Norfolk yesterday, I thought I wouldn't be able to do it but first thing in the morning before I could start panicking too much, I took a whole lorazapam and a anti-emetic. By the time I was dressed and downstairs, I was a little spaced out. I don't actually remember leaving really, and the whole journey was a blur,I partially slept, partially dosed and was just generally stoned. Part way along we stopped to use the toilet and do Angels nappy and I perked up a little which made me hungry so I ate a packet of crisps and took another anti-emetic because I could feel the other one wearing off. As soon as that one hit my system...woosh I was gone. I had loads of dreams about all sorts and I was talking and even singing at one point. Apparently we arrived early and drove around and ant did some shopping for the week while Angel napped in the car with me. I remember vague faint bits but nothing much until we got here and I unpacked. I had an early night then woke up this morning feeling a bit groggy but with it a lot more.
I was feeling okay first thing then the nearer it got to going out the more anxious I got. I decided we would be better to go somewhere in the car because we I'd have that safety net then. We travelled over to great yarmouth and parked up and walked near the beach and the pier but not on the sand. It was beautiful but I still felt very on edge. I didn't want to take lorazapam after taking a whole one yesterday. We parked up behind some shops and although anxious and on the edge of panic we walked the length of the shops, a good long distance from the car. Then back up the other way. By the end of it I was much calmer and feeling very proud of myself because it was packed. I've taken a picture and published it with this post.
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