For various reasons I didn't write a blog yesterday. The day started off nasty, I woke up to an allergic reaction in my nether regions which made me very swollen and unable to walk due to pain and irritation. Apart from being in he obvious discomfort I was pissed off that I wouldn't be able to go out with T and Angel in the nice weather and disgusted and disappointed in myself for being stupid enough to cause the reaction. I'll think twice before having a me night and using perfumed stuff again.
T and Angel went out with K and her family and I sat at home like a misery. I'd thought about self-harming but I felt too depressed to even do that and ended up sitting in the garden feeling fed up.
In the evening I ended up having to work through the discomfort to do the housework because T's knees were hurting. I ended up being extra clumsy and knocking off a glass which smashed and went the length of the kitchen and into the bathroom. I was wearing ballet shoes and had to try to avoid the glass shards while I was cleaning it all up on my hands and knees and the whole time I was internally being annoyed at T for not even bothering to come in and help me. I got it all up and hoovered to make sure it was all gone then had to get on with the washing-up and then bath Angel before she went to bed. Thankfully, my mood passed with T and by the time we got Angel into bed all I wanted to do was sit with him and watch 'True blood'. While we watched I worked on finishing a few summer dresses to take with me on holiday and snacked on nice food.
This morning I was feeling a little better in my undercarriage but not right still, I ended up having to put on another skirt and with a lot of my things being packed it was one that the elastic seems to have gone in so it kept falling down and annoying me. The weather was very wet and manky outside and my blood pressure started playing up from the moment I was upright. T had planned to work from home but with the way Angel has been behaving I said he could go out to work because he would most likely get more done.
From the point he went out I'm not sure where the time went. I don't remember most of it. I know I tried to eat more and take energy tablets to get myself going but I just kept feeling drowsy and had to keep sitting down. For a while Angel and I stood at the front door watching the rain, but I couldn't do it, I just couldn't go out. Before I knew what was happening I was lying on the floor, trying desperately to stay awake while Angel stroked my hair saying 'mummy na nite' I text T and my friend, not really realising what was going on. I managed to get Angel her lunch and sat on the sofa, then T came home and my friend came to check on me too. It was my ears hurting and playing up that was causing the tiredness and dizzy.
The rest of the a has kinda gone by in a dream really. T went to pick up one of my prescriptions for me and I went out to meet him and Angel on their way back and then we went into the chip shop which was very busy but I made myself stay and cope, so today wasn't without any wins.
I am hoping though that tomorrow I manage to do something more. I really want to take Angel to the library before Friday because the library books need to go back. I also need to pick up a prescription either tomorrow or Wednesday.
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