Holiday day 6 (final day)

This morning I woke up feeling much happier after a good evening of me and T just sitting near each other playing games and reading.

It was rainy and dull outside so we'd chosen the best option yesterday to go to the beach and pool. The plan for today was shopping.

My tummy was already feeling a bit yacky from worrying about travelling home tomorrow. We arrived at the shopping place and my arm was dotted with various nail marks from my panic and desperation. I really didn't feel up to getting out of the car but I knew it was our last day so I forced myself and T suggested I have half a lorazapam to smoothe things along. On the way from the parking place to the shops there were two girls,one looked fine, one wasn't looking so well and she asked her friend to stop for a moment. Then she was leaning against the wall when I turned back. I almost went back to the car but they were between me and it.

T encouraged me to keep going and when we went into the first shop I felt completely supported by him and my mind slowly calmed down and set to shopping instead. We got everything we were looking for and then we went to get some lunch. We brought mcdonalds but instead od going back to the car to eat or go home we sat in a park on a bench and ate... well T and Angel ate, I scoffed. We walked back to the car and I didn't even know where of was, it was about half a mile away and hard to locate. I don't know how I ate and didn't mind.

We travelled back to the apartment and I had some more lunch while we persuaded Angel to eat more too. Then it was toffee cake mmmmm. While Angel had her quiet time then on full tummies we went out again to the arcade then the small supermarket then to the cliffs to watch the sea. I was on no meds and when we were walking back we brought a big icecream sundae with Orange and citrus sprinkles and strawberry sauce. Bright colours... did I care.. apparently not, between the three of us it was gone by the time we were half way back.

Now I've done most of the packing, had dinner, been for a short walk (on my full tummy) and now I'm about to play games to try to distract my mind from the depressing feeling of leaving and the fear of travelling.