Holiday day 3 and 4

Monday day 3
It was wet and manky when we first got up and we decided to go to the sealife centre. I took no lorazapam and travelled over there fine. Inside it was like s maze with only one way in and out and lots of people. I was nervous to begin with but I focussed on how much fun Angel was having and had a nibble of some crisps then I felt a bit better and calmer too.
It was lovely looking around at everything and I was so proud of myself for doing it all on nothing.
By the time we came out I browsed round the gift shop while T just hovered behind me seeming uninterested. So we left there and expected us to walk down to the arcades and shops but everything I suggested T didn't seem enthusiastic about and I felt more and more depressed and stupid for suggesting things. I told T he'd triggered me, he said sorry but you cant undo a trigger. We walked on the beach for a while, picking up stones then we went back to the car and back to the chalet. We got chips on the way back and I very much regretted eating them when they laid heavy on my tummy all afternoon and kept repeating on me until early hours of the morning. We ended up staying in and watching a movie and then playing outside on the grass later.

Tuesday day 4
This morning the sun was out so we decided to go out to the beach and play and have a look at the arcade and some shops. 
I took 3/4 of a lorazapam and we went out. The beach was cooler than we expected but we made castles and had a great time. When Angel started to get bored we walked to some shops and a bakery then back up to the beach and arcade. The arcade was great, I lost myself for over an hour on the 2p machines before T and Angel came to get me to move because I had the apartment key.

Now Angel is sleeping and thanks to my meds I'm struggling to stay awake too. We are hoping to go swimming or take Angel to a soft play area later.

Going leave it there, I'm so exhausted.