The fear has set in.

For the last 2 or more hours T and I have been working our butts off to get everything packed, the car clean and Tidied, the animals cleaned and the house ready for leaving tomorrow so we barely have anything to do in the morning. My OCD had kicked in big time and I'm having to have everything I've packed double checked to make sure my OCD isn't going ott. When we were tidying and making space in the car I realised that I needed to replace my 'bags' that I keep available 'just in case'. It made me think about using them and my imagination kicked up terribly. From then on I've been shaking non stop. My stomach is churning and I feel like I can't breathe properly. I'm trying to concentrate on the good stuff but ive just entered panic mode. I keep thinking 'i can't do this' over and over while my tummy growls at me. If I'm like this now, how will I be later? Tomorrow morning?! My only hope is that I can have at least an hour to myself to Mayve have a bath or shower and do some hypnotherapy and force myself into coping mode for tomorrow morning.